I just finished a dress :D for Narae, it's inspired by 18th century riding gowns..it was great fun to make and I needed that, because I was a bit stuck with my commissions, stuck as in..it just wouldn't work the way I wanted it to, it looked good technically but it just missed..'it' I think 'it' is very important.

So last saturday I got some fabrics I thought were inspiring, and I worked for half a day on my commissions and for half a day on this dress that I designed myself and actually felt like making. They were both finished today ^_^ I'm going to take more/better pictures of the dress tomorrow, and then sell it. Auction style, I think, as I'm not sure what to ask for it-there's so much hand work in it that I can't simply count the hours and ask a hourly wage, as no one would pay that. I think. So I'll put it up and let people bid and see how much they will pay for it?

Coming saturday I'm going to get more fabrics, I have an idea for another dress ^_^ And for a human-sized commission, too, which has to be finished by the Midwinterfair. I hope, in the future, I will be able to work more like this and less commission based-not that I don't like doing commissions but I see myself as a designer, more so than a seamstress so these things where I design something are..well..they're better for my portofolio(which is important, considering I want to apply for a Costume for Performance master in England in two years)and they're just..better for me. I like being able to work as a freelance artist while I can, as I think after the master I'll probably look for a job in England which-at fist-won't be as nice and free as this. So I want to enjoy being able to develop myself and my skills while I can, and-though I'm critical as always and can see things I want to improve on the next dress-I do think this one is a 'level up' for me.

Anyway. Enough blabla, pictures!




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Spamming you with some bad pictures of sewing machine and Dilly's new Halloween decoration

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Stolen from Muizenstaartje :)

"Name one (or as many as you like) of my characters you'd like to know how he/she was like as a child and I'll tell you. If the character has no background that detailed, I'll make something up on the spot."

Should be interesting XD

Haha, first I'm not posting for weeks, then suddenly 3 posts in two days XD

But I forgot something in my previous post, and it didn't really fit anyway, so I'll make a new one.

I'm going to sell Lucette's old CP body, I don't think I'll get a head for it, it's simply too small and girly for me, I prefer either small girls(IE, Narae/Zaoll), or really big ones, something in between simply doesn't work for me. So I figured I'd first see if anyone here wants her :)

Anyway, it's a CP type 2 body, in normal skin with the mature bust, from august 2008. As far as I can tell, she has not yellowed. She's still in lovely condition, I hardly ever played with this body. The posing isn't awesome, but I think a lot could be improved by wiring and sueding-neither which I ever felt like doing. If you're going to the Halloween meet this week, I could take her with me so you can see what she's like or fit your head on her. I'm also going to Dolliverse.

I'm asking 200 euro's, which is a lot less than I paid, but the dollar is low at the moment so I don't want to make her too expensive.

Anyway, if anyone's interested, just let me know <3 I keep going back and forth on this, but I figure I should just realize I'm not going to do anything with it. First I thought I'd keep it for commissions, but I'm getting more of those for Zaoll than for CP girl XDD So, no more excuses xD

*going to continue on a Super Gem sized leather coat now* Love my new machine, he doesn't have any trouble with it at all <3

Got this meme from Muizenstaartje!

"A lot of us are yaoi fans, but how much do our doll collections really reflect that? List your dolls in whatever order you like, and state their preference and current object of affection, if applicable."

Interesting XD Alright, here we go..


Vasiley-bi(somewhat relationship with Alizee)

Sumiya-amazingly glittering flamlingly blindingly Gay with a capital G(very longterm boyfriend of Layla, but generally just loving all of earth's male population)

Saix-bi, with a preference for girls but somehow always seems to end up with men(has a boyfriend, Xem)

Puppy: straight(has a girlfriend, Rakxa)

Dilly: ..can you say anything about sexual preference when the person in question has no gender? Anyway, Dilly prefers men over women. But considering Dil is neither man or woman, we'll say bi (likes to flirt with Xenon, but has no actual love intrest)

Kahlen: bi (has a bit of an innocent girl crush on Saix) (or, you know, as innocent as you can be as Sumiya and Lucette's daughter)

Lucette: Gay, she only wants women

Davy: Straight and madly in love with Lucette

Score:

Straight: 2
Gay: 2
Bi:4


..obviously, most of my dolls can't choose what they like xD

This weekend was the Dolls&Bears fair at Ahoy, where I sold doll corsets and helped out with Triskel ^_^ It was a lot of fun, very busy, there were so many people! But it was great seeing some people again, and meeting new people, and staying with Mirri's parents was fun as well. I sold 9 corsets as well, so yay :) I also found out I'm better at selling other people's stuff than my own, considering I sold two dolls for Triskel XDD

Anyway, it was fun.

Now everything is back to normal, I now have a working sewing machine and I can finally get back to work. I finished 3 outfits and 2 doll corsets in the past two days, and am going off to give classes in a moment, so that is good. I also have to do my taxes this week, for the first time :O But considering I started in september, it's really not much work XD

I'm also working on preparing for a new theater show. If everything goes the way I want to, I want to use Huis aan de Werf(a beautiful big house here in Utrecht, which is used for art projects-our final DVTG examn and exhibition were there, it's a lovely location, very big and every room has professional theater lights)and turn it into Le Fleurs du Mal, Lucette's brothel, and play a game there. I'm already working on the game system, the basics are similar to last time, but this time with more space, more people, more people at once in the game and of course also deeper and more, finer rules to control the game.

The game should be about the people who play it, and about choices you make in your life and how you view your life, and if you are easily influenced by people more positive or negative than you. It should be..a little creepy, a little haunting. To tell that it's dangerous to not know what you want and to listen to everyone, because if you do you will never reach the end and never get out. That if you listen too well to what every character says and never put your foot down, you will not get out and stay ping-ponging between people-trying to keep them happy-forever. I think it's something a lot of people deal with, but we see as normal, and to turn an every day issue into a dramatic theatrical game like this, it will hopefully let people see what they are doing. My last game was about dreams, and I noticed a lot of people don't follow them, or just don't know. Often, it's because other people or objections are in the way, keeping them 'middle of the road' and I'd like this game to be about making choices that are right for you and turning people/things down that are not right for you.


Of course, it should also be pretty and fun and just generally cool! XD


In total, I will need 11 actors and like last time, I prefer people who know me and know how I work, and who can improvise, rather than professional actors who need a script. Because the 'audience' is active in the game, they are half of the cast-so you always have half of the cast consisting of people you don't know, so you can't have a script-you can only have game system rules that show you how to respond and how to behave. Within that, you act as you think is right within your role.

I'm going to see if I can get money for this at the Fonds BKBV(which is a dutch foundation supporting artists), I can either try to go for a 'starters stipendium', which would be given based on my previous work and presentation of myself, and is a set amount of money, or get a working budget specifically for this project, where I calculate how much I will need, and present this plan and try to get it. I'm not sure yet which one I want to take, but I want to work out the details of this play first, get in touch with Huis a/d Werf, get actors, make some concept art, work out the game system..just so I know I have something they just can't say no to. If they give you the money for your plan, they don't need anything in return, except for a written report of how the project went. It doesn't even need to succeed(but of course I will make it succeed).

The working buget would take less time, you can either write to them with your plan, or go to them, get 25 minutes to explain what you want and then hear if you get the money. I will definitly need money XD Last time I was able to pay from my own savings, but not with 11 actors, costumes and a huge house to fill(and well, I don't even know how much it will cost to be able to use their space, perhaps they offer it for free or for a small fee if they like the idea, perhaps they will ask an amount of money I can never afford. I know the House is theirs-they bought it a pretty long time ago for 100.000 euro's when it is now worth easily over 2 million-and it costs them very little money and they often have school and student related things there-who don't have a lot of money either, but you never know)

*cough* I'm rambling. I'm going to clean up my room and go to give my classes XD I planned this to be mostly about Ahoy and my new sewing machine, but somehow that didn't quite happen xD


(Sewing machine is lovely, btw. Huge. Heavy. Takes a bit getting used to. But awesome. So fast, too! And automatic thread cutter is amazing <3)

Today it's 4 years ago I received a package from Korea, containing a very cute, blank little Chiwoo doll from Luts(..and an embarassingly huge amount of shoes, wigs, etc), which I have been spoiling and adoring for the last 4 years XD He's my very first little dolly, and I still adore him, after 4 years, maybe even more than I did back then <3

Other than that, things are busy here. Good busy, but busy. I've decided I'm going to sell the CP girl body that once belonged to Lucette, I just need to make a dressform from the torso so I can use it for corsets, and then take some pics and sell it. If you're intrested in a NS Luts type 2 Mature girl body, from august 2008, let me know :)

*going to work a bit more on her corset now*

Woohoo, the doll corsets are for sale at Triskel :D

http://triskelfantasy.com/index.php?_a=viewCat&catId=457 <--so if you happen to want a corset for your doll, go and have a look XD There's only one of each corset and I'm not going to make the exact same corset again, so if you like a specific one..well, just know it's the only one there's going to be XD

(non dutch f list people, if you need a translation, just ask)

This weekend was the EFF in Arcen, where I had an exhibition :) Hasel went with me, and it was a lot of fun and I got a lot of great responses ^__^ So now I have to clean up my room and get back to work..*yawns*

Oh, and I've decided I'm going to sell Lucette..or, should I say, my Breakaway girl, because she's not Lucette anymore, the mold doesn't fit her and the only reason I've kept her the past half year is her body, which I don't really like either. So I'm going to make a ductape dressform from her torso so I can at least fit for corsets, and then sell her and buy a girl that I do like and that has a fairly standard body. Not sure which one yet, but I'll see. I'm still doubting wether to just sell her like this or first make a pretty dress for her and sell her as a fullset..I like the idea of selling her as a pretty fullset, with a nice dress and a pretty wig..but then again, people might just want to split it anyway. I'll see, I first need to make the dressform of her anyway.

*yawns* going to continue cleaning now :) Byebye

I want to get out of here!

Yesterday, I went to Kwintsheul(where my parents live)with Wolfy to photograph some costumes, it was much fun..afterwards we had some food on Utrecht central station and were just hanging around when it started to rain and thunder, etc. No biggie, we don't melt. So, we went home(she to Amersfoort, me to my room here in Utrecht)and I went to sleep..

..until my landlord knocked on the door. Apparently, it was leaking through the ceiling of his room, which is below my atelier. So we went to look if perhaps it was leaking in my room..well, it was! You see, there have been construction workers working on the windows and roof and such, for the whole summer...they've been quite annoying, starting at 7 in the morning with lots of noise, making rude comments when they see me working..and a few days ago I heard one of them remark that they'd be done by now, if only there weren't any mistakes made when they just started. But, he thought, it was not a big deal.

And now there was water coming through my window =.= the whole right sight of my atelier was soaking! Luckily, it didn't get to anything important and we were able to put towels and buckets there..but it just felt so..you know. Stupid. When you have to place buckets in your room to stop it from leaking.

Later on, there were firemen outside and I heard them talk about leaking, so I guess other people had even more problems than we did. The rain stopped fairly quickly, but it's still wet and the wall still has a big, ugly stain on it. We took pictures yesterday night, so maybe we can get a compensation.

But! More fun news. Those guys have to work here on tuesday. Inside. In my room. So I have to clean up and put everything out of the way, will not be able to work, have to stay home in the other room while those people who have been well..so..pervy..all summer(I'm serious, I'm working-say, cutting some fabric-,they simply stand outside my windows, staring and LICKING THEIR LIPS)work on ruining the room I pay a ridiculous amount of money for =.=

I want to get out of here! I hate this city, I hate this neighbourhood, the noise, how expensive it is and for what? Nothing. A leaking house where I feel like a freaking prostitute and am getting rude comments from construction workers when I'm inside, and from obnoxious teens when I'm outside. I want to go somewhere where I can at least feel safe in my own place.

Ugh, I hope I don't have to pay for the water damage when I move out, if the building company refuses to.


Anyway, I subscribed for some homes in Heerenveen, a week and a half ago. The shortest wait is 6 months, there was another place which was only 3 months but it only had 1 room(as in, no seperate bedroom and living room-but it does have your own kitchen, bath room etc and it's not living with other people, just a small appartment), a big room, but still only one so I was hesistating..but I signed up for it anyway. I want to get out of here, and when I'm invited to see it, I'll see if it's big enough. If I like it, I'm out of here-maybe even by november.

I can't wait, but that doesn't take away the DOOM of tuesday =.= Ugh!

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